This year had a lot of ups and downs for me.
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This past spring, I felt about as low as I have felt about my writing since I started. My book was going nowhere. There seemed to be nothing I could do to better its chances of being sold. I was unsure if anything I was writing was any good.
Then something happened. And that something was nothing at all.
There's a story Stephen King tells about his first novel, "Carrie," my more frightening namesake. The novel, to hear him tell it, was in the wastebasket. (This was in the days when documents were made of real paper and went into actual wastebaskets.) His wife, Tabitha, pulled the pages out, brushed off the cigarette ashes, and read them. She thought they were good. She encouraged him to continue. He did, and the rest is history.
I love this story because nothing happened. Tabitha believed in him. He decided not to quit. This is not the stuff of a screenplay -- certainly nothing as exciting as Stephen King would write. But I love the story because I believe this is how most of the big miracles happen. In my case, I just moped around for a few days and finally realized that, if I was going to feel any different, I would have to do something different. And so I did.
I started planning a show for the first time in four years. I made plans to perform in front of people -- not because it was the most practical course of action for a writer to take, but because it made me happy, and it connected me and my writing to other people. For the first time, I almost forgot I had a book being shopped around. As soon as I started making plans, everything changed.
I realized I loved the new book I was working on and dove into revisions. I was able to finish the book after that. I had been worried I would have less energy to devote to projects if I picked up another one. Instead, I had much more energy than before. I had just been a little stuck.
And, somewhere in the middle of all that, my book sold.
In a movie, there would have been a miraculous phone call that turned everything around.
"Hello, Carrie? We're interested in buying your book!" the caller would have said in the movie version of my life. This is not what happened. I was already unstuck when the good news arrived.
This is the lesson I'd like to take into the new year.
It's easy to get a little stuck. There are things that will genuinely slow me down and hamper my success and, as optimistic as I am, I'm not blind to these obstacles. More will come in the future. I know this.
But, somehow, I need to find a way to get unstuck.
Sometimes it's as simple as messing with my routine: Go out for a coffee once in a while, take a walk in the morning, call a friend I haven't talked to in a while. It doesn't really matter. That is the point. It doesn't matter what I do, as long as I get unstuck. The hardest thing is to recognize that I am stuck and realize I don't have to be.
I can't fix everything at once. I might spin my wheels for a while. But, with any luck, someone like Tabitha will give my rear bumper a push when I need it, and I can get myself moving again.
Happy New Year,
Carrie
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