DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I’ve read articles where one person or the other in a relationship has lost their interest in sex, but what happens when it’s both of you?
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So, my husband and I have been together for close to twenty years now, including five as married partners. We’ve had our ups and downs, opened our relationship and closed it occasionally as needed, but we’ve always had a strong sexual connection with one another. This connection has weathered a lot of trials – when my father died suddenly from a stroke; when my husband lost his job; when we both had to pack our bags and move last minute to take care of his ailing parents while he still didn’t have a job; to my switching careers and his string of ill-fitting jobs before he found his current job that he loves. Through it all, we’ve always had that spark. It may not have been the sort of “can’t keep our hands off each other” the way it was when we were both horny 20-somethings, but it’s always been there, and it’s always been part of what’s kept our relationship strong.
Then the election happened, and things just seemed to taper off until it stopped completely. By the end of January, we hadn’t had sex in two months; not with each other, not with any outside partners and honestly, barely with ourselves. I haven’t had any interest in masturbating and my husband, likewise, hasn’t had so much as morning wood.
We’re both healthy, with recent physicals that tell us that everything’s ok on a hormonal level. Neither of us have had any major life changes or started new medications. I’m honestly unsure what else it could be, because it wasn’t like turning off a light, more like the way a faucet slows, drips and then stops. Except it doesn’t seem like we’re able to turn the faucet back on again. Neither of us currently has an outside partner and we’re not really interested in finding one and it’s not like we’re unhappy with each other. We still love and care for each other and can’t imagine life without each other. It just seems like we’ve hit a dead patch and we’re not sure what to do.
Do you have any advice to bring things back when both people in the relationship just aren’t feeling it?
Winter Doldrums
DEAR WINTER DOLDRUMS: You know the famous quote from Sherlock Holmes, the one that goes “When you have eliminated all which is impossible, then whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth”?
Well, the same thing applies here. You’ve eliminated the obvious possibilities – there hasn’t been any major life changes, you’re physically in good health, neither of you are interested in other people, and so on – and so it seems the most obvious answer is… well, you’re too depressed to f--k.
Here’s the thing about the human libido: it’s a weird, fickle little bastard that doesn’t seem to make a lick of goddamn sense in its response. A lot of the time, it has as much to do with what’s in your head as what’s in your pants. A lot of people who deal with a sudden or unexpected death, for example, find that they’re almost uncontrollably horny in the aftermath, at a time when they would be forgiven if sex was the last thing on their mind. For them, it’s like their sex drive is a part of their brain that’s lashing out against the unfairness of death; they respond to that loss with the ultimate rejection of mortality by being driven to the act of creating new life. Some people lose their libido during times of stress, like their body is reserving their energy for other tasks, while others become veritable satyrs, almost insatiable as orgasm serves as a release and reprieve from the tension. Some people don’t feel sexual desire unless they feel an emotional connection and some people lose desire when they start to catch feelings. So you can be forgiven for being confused when, after all the craziness that you’ve experienced didn’t make a dent in your libido, this is when it decides to crash.
And honestly, it’s understandable. This is a time of incredible upheaval, when the world feels like its on a tipping point, again. This is the sort of thing that tends to put people in survival mode, rather than thinking about banging. During the lockdowns, people used to joke that this was going to lead to a massive baby boom; after all, the world was suddenly stuck at home and the assumption was that we’d all start friggin’ in the riggin’ ‘cuz there was f--k-all else to do. Instead, there was a global decline in births in most of the developed world, and even subsequent surges have never returned the birth rate to the previous levels.
Well, now the US is at a place where the most marginalized among us are at risk, where the strength of the Republic is being tested to the breaking point by people who seem determined to drive a bulldozer through all of it in the name of personal power and making billionaires just a little bit richer and f--k everyone else. It’s certainly possible – likely, even – that the sheer scope of the danger and uncertainty, to the economy, to the country and to the people has left the both of you in a place where sex isn’t the last thing on your mind because that would imply it was still on the list.
So what do you do about this? Well, I think the first thing is that you don’t want to psych yourself out about it. Our libidos can respond to our brains as much as it does to our limbic system, and starting to treat this like a permanent change or getting too deep in your heads about it is precisely the sort of thing that’s likely to keep you from feeling like setting the sheets on fire again. When you get caught up in the panic and keep it in the forefront of your mind, it can be a self-reinforcing cycle; you worry about how little sex you’re having, which tanks your libido, which makes you think about it constantly, which makes you worry. Making it front and center of your worries keeps your attention on the part you don’t want – the sex you’re not having. But trying to not think of it isn’t the answer either. It’s like trying to not think about Sabrina Carpenter riding Gritty in a pony-play outfit while singing The Ballad of Bilbo Baggins; the more effort you put into pushing it away means you can’t stop picturing it.
(What can I say except “you’re welcome”…)
But here’s the other thing about libidos. One of the weird things is how often it tends to respond to the status quo. If you’re not having it, you tend to want it less; if you’re having a lot of it, you tend to want more. So sometimes the answer is to break the status quo and force the issue.
Now to be sure, that’s easy to say and hard to do when neither of you are feeling like getting busy. However, this is a good time to take a page from Dr. Emily Nagoski’s book and pay attention to what’s known as responsive desire; that is, desire that happens after sex is initiated, rather than getting horny and then initiating sex. Instead of waiting for desire to come back on its own, I would suggest seeing about whether you can summon it instead, like you’re trying to invoke Priapus and Eros.
I’m not suggesting that you two force the issue – whether with a few drinks, some edibles or some blue pills to make the erections happen. I don’t think trying to force arousal is going to be the right move; it’s more likely to reinforce the feeling of ‘well, this ain’t happening’. Instead, what I would suggest is that you schedule time for just the two of you; maybe this can be at home or maybe this can be at a romantic overnight somewhere. The important part is that you’re going to make time for the two of you that’s just about the two of you and the intimacy of your relationship. No internet, no distractions, just the two of you having time to yourselves that’s strictly for yourselves, with both of you strictly there in the now. You cuddle, you rub each other’s backs and feet, you engage in all the affectionate, intimate physical contact of couples and just… relax. There’s no pressure to do anything except to simply enjoy the almost primordial pleasure of being in physical contact with another person. Give each other those hits of dopamine that come from skin-to-skin contact and just let the universe dissolve to just the two of you.
From there, you go where the mood leads you. Maybe you decide to make out a little, maybe you share a long hot bath, maybe you just decide to fall asleep in a two-person cuddle-puddle. The important thing is that you’ve stolen away this time from the world and shut everything out because this is just about you. You give yourselves permission to have sex if you feel so moved, but also to not do so if you don’t. Maybe you’ll decide to get things started even if you’re not necessarily in the mood. Maybe you’ll decide to just enjoy a moment of peace in your two-person cocoon away from the world. You may decide to try doing the little things that you know get a response from each other and see what happens. Or you may just decide that a night without thinking about sex and just being intimate is what you need.
Then, schedule another night. Again, it doesn’t need to be an elaborate date night, it just needs to be something you’ve carved out time for, that you can look forward to, when there are no other distractions or demands on your time or attention. Be physically close and intimate but otherwise without expectations and a “whatever happens, happens” attitude. I think you’ll be surprised at how much tension drains away, even if you don’t necessarily feel the familiar stirrings… and taking away that tension takes your foot off the brakes, as Nagoski suggests.
Yes, it may take a bit before your libidos return to where they were before, but these moments will help reinforce the connection you have to each other. The intimacy is as important as the orgasms and the moment of peace will be like a cool washcloth on a fevered brow. That, I think, will make it a lot more likely that you’ll feel the beginnings of a spark… with plenty of tinder left around for that spark to catch.
Good luck.
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